Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Stop it already....
Ok, I'm either having a serious brain fart or I am just sick. Because, for the last few days, I've been talking to my ex. Well, not quite ex, but, pretty soon. Anyways, I talked to him Saturday night, and I started getting these mixed feelings..... because, as you know, I didn't end my marriage...I never wanted a divorce. I mean, we were actually getting along very well. It was just so nice to hear his voice. He almost had a hint of "I need you" in his voice. Or, that's what I thought I heard. Now, today, it's like it was a week ago. Short....to the point..... Actually, I have only talked to him just a few times since he left October 24th. I've only seen him once..... that was the day after he moved out. Ok, was I just reading into it?? Hoping that's what he was trying to say or what? Why am I thinking about this??? Why is it driving me absolutely crazy?? Yes, I miss my husband. Yes, I still love my husband.. But, HE left ME!! So, why am I feeling this way??? I thought I was doing so good....I mean, I have my bad days, but, all in all, I was moving forward. Because that's what he said he wanted. Is this normal? Is this how it works?? Does he want to come back? WHAT???????? UGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!
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well he may miss you, but that doesn't mean he loves you. He may even want you or need you, but that isn't love or anything to do with it. I haven't ever said anything about this before, but maybe I should now. Based on everything that I have heard from you. I think your better off letting him be and trying to push him outa your system for your own good. That doesn't mean forever, but outa your current picture. If he said he wanted out, signed the papers and everything else let him be.
No as far as you and your feelings. Well that is normal, you miss you, you still love him you still care. Why? Because you have a true heart and a caring soul. Your a good woman and you just been through hell. I've been there and taken ex's back, and in the end regretted it big time. I know this isn't easy, it never is even if you have been separated for years it's never easy to and a relationship and feel ok about it.
I'm sorry if I have come off as pissy, but you know what, I may not know you, but I like you allot as a friend and I respect you as such and I only want you to be happy and live your life the way you want and need to. Take care and God bless everyone
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