MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Merry Christmas everybody!!! What a great day!! I have my entire family here from Florida, New York and Virginia!! We got up very early and unwrapped our gifts.... it took forever! But, I got tons of great stuff.... a COACH purse, a Leather jacket,clothes, a pink bluetooth..... perfumes and all sorts of goodies!! It was great! Now we are going to eat our breakfast and go watch 24 hours of, yep, you guessed it...........THE CHRISTMAS STORY!!! And take a nap!!!! Merry Christmas everybody!!!

Stop it already....

Ok, I'm either having a serious brain fart or I am just sick. Because, for the last few days, I've been talking to my ex. Well, not quite ex, but, pretty soon. Anyways, I talked to him Saturday night, and I started getting these mixed feelings..... because, as you know, I didn't end my marriage...I never wanted a divorce. I mean, we were actually getting along very well. It was just so nice to hear his voice. He almost had a hint of "I need you" in his voice. Or, that's what I thought I heard. Now, today, it's like it was a week ago. Short....to the point..... Actually, I have only talked to him just a few times since he left October 24th. I've only seen him once..... that was the day after he moved out. Ok, was I just reading into it?? Hoping that's what he was trying to say or what? Why am I thinking about this??? Why is it driving me absolutely crazy?? Yes, I miss my husband. Yes, I still love my husband.. But, HE left ME!! So, why am I feeling this way??? I thought I was doing so good....I mean, I have my bad days, but, all in all, I was moving forward. Because that's what he said he wanted. Is this normal? Is this how it works?? Does he want to come back? WHAT???????? UGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!

The NEW AND IMPROVED ME!!!!

Well, I've decided to stop blogging about my ex and the stuff we are going thru. Just know that our divorce will be final soon. But, like I told him, I am looking good, feeling good and enjoying my life. I really am. This was a blessing in disguise. I know I deserve good things in my life. I deserve a good man who WANTS to really be with me for ME!! I'm sure he is out there. I'm not going to go out looking..... I'm just going to let it happen. Yes, I've got my eye on someone, but, in time. If it's meant to be, it will be and I won't have to pursue it..... it will happen if it's supposed to. If not, well, then it wasn't meant to be, right? So, for now, I am going to enjoy my "singleism" (my new word!) and do what I want to. I just want to meet people, have fun and enjoy my life. LIFE IS GOOD!!! I didn't think I'd enjoy being alone,but, I really do. I mean,sure, I get lonely and wish I had someone to canoodle with in front of the fire but, it's ok........ Matt Damon on the tv works for me!! Someday, the REAL man of my dreams will show up out of nowhere!! I have faith. I feel like I am a good person, a caring person and someone, somewhere will appreciate that. I can honestly say, this is the first time ever that I can say, "I love myself"! And that's all that matters!!! PEACE!!!

Where have I been?????

Wow! Sure has been awhile since I was on here last. Had alot going on since May.... got a new job, spent some time in Florida, my husband left me...... so yeah, been pretty busy. Yes, he packed up and left after I went to work one day. WIERD!! And only a few days after we got back from NC....I finally got to meet his family! I don't know...don't ask. What's that great saying...."It's better to have loved and lost than to have lived with a PSYCHO the rest of your life!". So, anyways, I'm back. I've got a GREAT new job! I work for a local corporation.... doing medical collections. So, if you don't pay your hospital bill, I will be calling you looking for it. Actually, I don't do that. I work in the medicaid part of it. I call medicaid looking for payments! I really enjoy it. I love the people I work with, I love, love, love my little cubicle.... decorated with pink stuff, of course. I listen to my ipod while I work....it's a great job!! I'm very thankful that they hired me and gave me the opportunity to work with such great people. So, my life has been a roller coaster over the last few months, but, with the support of good friends and family, I'll be fine!