MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Merry Christmas everybody!!! What a great day!! I have my entire family here from Florida, New York and Virginia!! We got up very early and unwrapped our gifts.... it took forever! But, I got tons of great stuff.... a COACH purse, a Leather jacket,clothes, a pink bluetooth..... perfumes and all sorts of goodies!! It was great! Now we are going to eat our breakfast and go watch 24 hours of, yep, you guessed it...........THE CHRISTMAS STORY!!! And take a nap!!!! Merry Christmas everybody!!!

Stop it already....

Ok, I'm either having a serious brain fart or I am just sick. Because, for the last few days, I've been talking to my ex. Well, not quite ex, but, pretty soon. Anyways, I talked to him Saturday night, and I started getting these mixed feelings..... because, as you know, I didn't end my marriage...I never wanted a divorce. I mean, we were actually getting along very well. It was just so nice to hear his voice. He almost had a hint of "I need you" in his voice. Or, that's what I thought I heard. Now, today, it's like it was a week ago. Short....to the point..... Actually, I have only talked to him just a few times since he left October 24th. I've only seen him once..... that was the day after he moved out. Ok, was I just reading into it?? Hoping that's what he was trying to say or what? Why am I thinking about this??? Why is it driving me absolutely crazy?? Yes, I miss my husband. Yes, I still love my husband.. But, HE left ME!! So, why am I feeling this way??? I thought I was doing so good....I mean, I have my bad days, but, all in all, I was moving forward. Because that's what he said he wanted. Is this normal? Is this how it works?? Does he want to come back? WHAT???????? UGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!

The NEW AND IMPROVED ME!!!!

Well, I've decided to stop blogging about my ex and the stuff we are going thru. Just know that our divorce will be final soon. But, like I told him, I am looking good, feeling good and enjoying my life. I really am. This was a blessing in disguise. I know I deserve good things in my life. I deserve a good man who WANTS to really be with me for ME!! I'm sure he is out there. I'm not going to go out looking..... I'm just going to let it happen. Yes, I've got my eye on someone, but, in time. If it's meant to be, it will be and I won't have to pursue it..... it will happen if it's supposed to. If not, well, then it wasn't meant to be, right? So, for now, I am going to enjoy my "singleism" (my new word!) and do what I want to. I just want to meet people, have fun and enjoy my life. LIFE IS GOOD!!! I didn't think I'd enjoy being alone,but, I really do. I mean,sure, I get lonely and wish I had someone to canoodle with in front of the fire but, it's ok........ Matt Damon on the tv works for me!! Someday, the REAL man of my dreams will show up out of nowhere!! I have faith. I feel like I am a good person, a caring person and someone, somewhere will appreciate that. I can honestly say, this is the first time ever that I can say, "I love myself"! And that's all that matters!!! PEACE!!!

Where have I been?????

Wow! Sure has been awhile since I was on here last. Had alot going on since May.... got a new job, spent some time in Florida, my husband left me...... so yeah, been pretty busy. Yes, he packed up and left after I went to work one day. WIERD!! And only a few days after we got back from NC....I finally got to meet his family! I don't know...don't ask. What's that great saying...."It's better to have loved and lost than to have lived with a PSYCHO the rest of your life!". So, anyways, I'm back. I've got a GREAT new job! I work for a local corporation.... doing medical collections. So, if you don't pay your hospital bill, I will be calling you looking for it. Actually, I don't do that. I work in the medicaid part of it. I call medicaid looking for payments! I really enjoy it. I love the people I work with, I love, love, love my little cubicle.... decorated with pink stuff, of course. I listen to my ipod while I work....it's a great job!! I'm very thankful that they hired me and gave me the opportunity to work with such great people. So, my life has been a roller coaster over the last few months, but, with the support of good friends and family, I'll be fine!

I'm back.........

Well, I am back. Don't know why I took such a long break between posts. I started a new job and I guess because there is no drama there like at the police department, I didn't have a whole lot to say. But, that's a good thing! Anyways, I will be posting new pictures soon, so, come back again!!

Wow! What a month!!

Just some pictures of me and some STARS I have met over the last year!! I've got a few more to put on here....... just need to figure out how to do it again!!!

What does a Fender Stratocaster and a 262 pound watermelon have in common??

I posted this same blog on my myspace page...but, it's just really interesting so I wanted to put it on this one as well, so everybody can read it:

As most of you know by now, I have taken a liking to guitars. Especially Fenders! I like the way they look, and I love the way they sound. Even though I am not that great, or even that good for that matter, I am intrigued by them. Recently, I went to visit my family in Florida. My niece let me borrow "some old guitar" that she got a few years ago for her birthday. It was mainly used as a decoration in her room. It's a robin egg blue Fender Stratocaster! I cleaned it up a little and now it sits next to my Fender acoustic..... Needless to say, I really like my Fenders. Well, unfortunately, in today's obituaries in The Tennessean, (I read them everyday.....) I saw a picture of a man holding a guitar... His name was Bill Carson. I usually just look at the ages of the people that have passed, but, because of the picture, I read it. Come to find out, Mr. Carson, who was 80 years old, was an accomplished western swing guitarist in the late 50's for artists such as Hank Thompson, Spade Cooley and Billy Gray. Then he went to work for Mr. Fender in the product development department and testing. He was the designer of the famous FENDER STRATOCASTER guitar!!!! He also held positions as plant manager, Director of Artist Relations, Marketing Director, etc..... I was just amazed! I was also saddened at the same time. Know what else is interesting about this man???? He was in the 1990 Guinness Book of World Records for growing the world's largest watermelon..... 262 pounds! How cool was he?? Seriously.... from designing a guitar that has been used by some of the most famous musicians in the world to growing unusually large fruit!!! It is sad that he has passed, but what a great little history lesson. I just wanted to share that with everybody.

Thought of the day........................

My mom had this quote posted on our refrigerator for years....I saw it and thought it was worth posting.


God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. – Reinhold Niebuhr

Due to technical difficulties.............

AHHHHHHHH...... finally, I can post blogs again! I am very excited. I was having blog withdrawls last week. I had so much to say and could not log in to post! This is my therapy! It was like a shrink calling to say they would be on vacation for a month! UGGGHHH!!!
So, anyways, I am able to post again, so, watch out! You never know what I will post about next!!

GUITAR JUNKIE!!!!

My new addiction: trying to play my guitar! I have taken on a new found love of acoustic guitars! Especially MY new Fender. It's awesome.

I never really realized how incredibly hard it is to learn to play. Some people are just super talented I suppose. Others, like me, have to practice and struggle. And I DO struggle! Can't hit the C chord to save my life. Then, I sit and watch my husband, in a matter of thirty minutes, rock out on his steel guitar, then pick up the bass guitar and pick a few on that, then comes the dobro, then, he'll sit down with mine and play for awhile. Not to mention he occasionally picks up the lap steel and plays on that for awhile. He is soooooooooooo frickin talented! But, it is fun practicing with him. He's my inspiration! Maybe by Christmas next year I'll be able to play along to some Christmas carols.....LOL....NOT!!

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